I
Stand Alone
Alone I stand screaming into the darkness.
Take away the emptiness residing in my soul.
Give back to me that which was stolen away.
Let me once more feel, passion, anger, and hate.
Let me feel your presence and your warm embrace.
Let me once more live among the living, instead of co-existing
with the dead.
These feelings are alien and not pleasant at all.
These withdrawals from your love are more painful
than any physical pangs would dare to be.
The voices that are mocking me...
Dig deeper with each new whisper... And each new accusation.
Accusations
Alone I stand staring off into the darkness.
Naked I stand each layer removed before your eyes.
Ashamed I stand before the searing look of your eyes into
my very soul.
Mute I stand before your anger.
No defense have I.
Deaf I stand before after your words of accusations.
Damaged goods I know I am.
Unworthy to expect true love from anyone.
Everyone that discovers the complexity of loving me...
Turns around and walks away in utter disgust and dismay.
Why did I allow myself to dare hope that you'd be the one
who could love all the parts of me?
But like all dreams and fairytales sooner or later one must
awake.
And face the harsh realities that the unlovable are destined
to always be unlovable.
Every
Every day is darker then the day before.
Every night is longer then the night before.
Every step is harder then the step before.
Every time I look into the mirror it's harder to recognize
who I've become.
Every tear I cry is easier then the tear before.
Every blessing is more cursed then the blessing before.
Every nightmare is more real then the nightmare before.
Every hope I ever had, has disappeared and is no more.
Every scream is louder then the scream before.
Every echo is so far away, even they not wish to stay.
Every memory I have of you is becoming dimmer with each passing
day.
Every word you ever spoke to me has become like ashes in the
wind.
Every heartbeat hurts more without you.
Every smile has become more fleeting.
Every laugh is haunting my mind and soul.
Every vow has become broken.
Every tomorrow has disappeared into the darkness of the night.
Every day is harder just to live without you.
Every day is longer listening for your footsteps.
Every day is sadder without your whispers in my ears.
Every day I pray for death to stop this unending pain.
How Do You...?
How do you say goodbye when hello was said
such a short time ago?
How do you say goodbye when forever was spoken of... just
yesterday?
How do you say goodbye when it makes both cry bitter tears?
How do you turn and walk away...
When you've given all you have?
And nothing is left within you to carry on?
How do you turn and walk away from yourself?
How do you let go when you want to hang on for dear life?
How do you step aside and let the one you love make the biggest
mistake of their lives?
How do you keep quiet when your soul is screaming?
How do you learn to carry on without the one you love?
How do you rebuild again when all hope is shattered?
How do you learn to forgive both yourself and the one you
love?
